Should I stay or should I go?

I had a constructive discussion with my partners today. The reality of the possibility of me leaving may have made them review their position. They seem keener to keep me at the practice, but need to await the accounts before deciding which way to go. Meanwhile I'm exploring options myself ...it's certainly an adventure

Resignation to inevitable change

Today I resigned from my partnership with the practice. I am now free to do what ever I want, well from June anyway

Change is a foot

Dear followers,
The last few weeks have been very difficult for me and it has become very clear that I can no longer work with my partners. This space is too public to record the detail, but I fear that the relationship has broken down. My quandry is what to do now.
I have to work at least two sessions a week in a central Manchester practice to be able to undertake the job of clinical director. This is my priority. However, there are other even more exciting options which I wont go into at this stage.
It is interesting that once the fear is gone, in this case of leaving the comfort of the partnership, all sorts of options become available as your imagination begins to take change. The fear had blocked the imagination, and now it is free and wild again. So I might take a brief financial hit, but not for long. Remember I've done it before. The fear of divorce is worse than the event intself, I should know. In the end, doing the right thing by yourself is the most important thing.
There's a song that Dido, of all people, does that has helped through times of trouble like this. It is about a broken relationship, and has the words 'I promise you you'll see the sun again'. I've been playing it to myself a lot the last week.
The theme in church at the moment is 'lament' which is such a great word. i think I'm emerging from the lament phase again. We'll see

Running up to retirement

The end of an exciting week. What has become clear to me is that I do like my work, but the people I'm working with don't have either the intellectual capacity, whit or humour, to make it worth carrying on for any longer than is necessary.
So I am resolved to retire from the NHS pension scheme on my sixtieth birthday. By that time I will have made sufficient contribution to have a comfortable time of it. I will be continuing to work for the NHS, but perhaps in a more gentle way, and spend more time with my family.

The next five years in the practice is about just keeping my head down and getting on with it. Then I shall draw out the capital from the practice, and thank you very much but goodbye.

Clinical Director

Yes, it's official. I am Clinical Director of Central Manchester Clinical Commissioning Group. This means I'm in charge of improving quality in GP surgeries, and monitoring and managing performance with the local hospital. How exciting. You know what, I'm good at it too.

Meanwhile tomorrow I have to go for a 'medical' which my jealous partners have insisted I go for. They think I'm going crazy or something. It's been a spectacular display of passive aggression played at its most aggressive. As I know I'm completely sane, I don't think there'll be a problem. hahaha, hahaha, twitch twitch.

I was at a meeting today with them all, including a consultant psychiatrist. I think he'll be a good witness.
So here's to the next four years, that's how long we have to save the NHS.